Jul 6, 2004
Masa kecik dulu, mak dgn ayah selalu ajar, cakap 'terima kasih' bila orang tolong kita.
Lepas tu, mak dgn ayah pesan 'terima kasih' bila orang berbudi dan berbahasa dgn kita,
tak kira tua atau pun muda, lelaki atau perempuan, pandai atau bodoh, lulus sekolah atau tidak.
Mak dgn ayah cakap, tak rugi kalau cakap 'terima kasih'. Malah kita akan lebih di respect oleh orang.
Jadi persoalannya disini, kenapa susah sangat kita nak ucapkan terima kasih pada orang.
Jatuh ke maruah bila cakap terima kasih? Malu ke bila kita cakap terima kasih?
Apa, bila cakap terima kasih orang takkan respect kita ke?
Issh....geram betul aku bila orang tak reti reti nak cakap terima kasih nie...
Bukannya kena bayar pun kalau cakap terima kasih.
Belum lagi aku dengar bila orang cakap terima kasih, keluar emas permata dari mulut dia.
Dan tak pernah jugak aku dengar orang jatuh miskin bila cakap terima kasih,
sbb setahu aku terima kasih tu tak de lah kena masuk duit baru boleh cakap.
Tapi entah ler, korang pernah ke dengar mesin untuk ucap terima kasih?
Manalah tau, zaman teknologi terkini dan sensasi nie,
kot kot ada pulak yg implement mesin yg seumpama itu.
Kenapa lah aku pertikai sangat orang cakap terima kasih ke idak,ek?
Sbb aku dah terlalu banyak kali kena...
Aku tolong orang, tapi orang tak reti reti nak cakap thank you or terima kasih...
Issshh, aku panas betul dengan diorang nie..Bukannya aku nak hadiah ke apa ke...
Cukuplah ckp terima kasih kat aku, itu pun susah ke?
Ye lah, org kata, tolong dgn ikhlas, jgn harapkan apa apa balasan, ye tak?
Tapi, mesti korang pun geram kan? Kalau korang tolong org tapi, org buat tak reti aje, kan.
Panas jugak hati...
Tapi terpulanglah pada pandangan masing masing. Ini sekadar pandangan aku aje.
Tapi kita kan penuh dgn adat, budi dan bahasa....jadi takkan tak paham paham...kan kan...
Terpulanglah pada korang semua, bukan kah lebih murni dan manis kalau kita boleh ucapkan
"TERIMA KASIH"...
Pengajaran untuk sendiri:
Macam mana nak dapatkan respect orang, kalau kita sendiri pun tak reti nak respect orang.
Jadi, tepuk dada tanyalah diri, 'kita respect ke orang lain? kita cakap ke terima kasih kat orang lain?'
Kalau Ya, dan kita sendiri tidak dpt balik semua itu dari org itu, bersabar ajelah....
Hidupkan macam roda, pusing pusing...kena balik kat tempat yg sama....
Tapi kalau terkena diri balik, jangan pulak kita nak marah. Kita pun buat salah jugak...
Sebelum aku terlupa, Terima Kasih pada semua untuk segalanya. Posted at 09:05 am by candle
Jun 24, 2004
Story One
I don't like to have this kind of feeling.
I feel so gloomy, depressed, misery, despair, desolation n etc etc..
I feel like crying, but I couldn't.
Probably, I've make a promise - not to cry easily.
The worst, I couldn't describe the real actual of my feeling.
I'm feeling so down, as too much things crumble inside my head.
I need to think, I'm worried what will happen next?
There are list of unfinished business that need to be done.
But, it takes time. Yes, time....not in seconds, minutes but years...
Now, all I need is the strength to carry on.
I need to be strong in heart and in mind.
I need a positive mind. Wise and rise in mind and mood.
I know and I must admit and always have this in my mind,
'For all things that happen, there's always a reason behind it'
'Life without a problem equals to DULL.'
Is it true?
Story Two
Here and there, all I heard...
'oh, she's getting married'
'my friend's is gonna get married soon'
'will you come to my wedding'
'you wanna see my wedding pictures?'
'I wanna you address, nak invite you to my wedding'
I was like...arrghh....
I know, I should be happy for them. Yeah yeah...moga berbahagia ke akhir hayat.
But I just can't neglect and ignore my dear heart for feeling depressed.
Am I? Whooaa...I don't know.
Story Three
Do I like him? Am I?
But, does he like me? Does he?
What if he already have someone else?
Just be friend. Be friend.
He seems to be nice to me.
What should I do now? Be friend, again.
He gave me his number, and asking mine at the same time.
Is this the starting point to a erkk....nahh...
Probably, I'm just being too over 'perasan'.
Woopss, sorry. He's a nice guy indeed.
What should I do? Tell me...
Story Four
I sms to several of my friends last nite.
A very simple question, 'If u miss someone, what would u do?'
Some of my friends were curios, as one of them did ask me, 'awak rindu siapa nie?'
Here were the answers received last nite:
(Note:answer received from several number of friends and here's the conclusion)
One - call the person that I miss
Two - tell the person that I miss him/her
Three - listen to my favourite songs while trying to remember vividly all the memories we had before.
Four - go to bed and hoping to dream of the person that I miss.
Heheh, but thanks to most of them for being 'supporting' enough by giving an answer to my sweet and touching question. ;)
Errmm...I come to conclude that, people will do many things when they miss someone.
What about you? What will be your answer?
Conclusion
Four stories in a day...is that shows I think too much? Or I have so much to tell?
Posted at 10:09 am by candle
Jun 21, 2004
I went to the town this morning. Hoping that I could pay my credit card bill as it's gonna be due tomorrow.
Goshh...how can I forget about it. I should have paid it earlier by post.
In ten minutes, I've reach the town. It is fortune that the bus service is so damn good.
I walked in to the bank...
"Oh, I'm sorry dear, if u pay through me it's gonna take about four days to clear."
Alamak...macam mana, esok is gonna be the last day. "Ermm...what else can I do?"
"You can call the customer service in the credit card center. The number will be at the back of your bill. Do you have a switch card?"
"Yes, I do have one"
"That's good, then you can pay your bill straight away but you need to call them"
"Ok, thank you very much"
"No problem, dear. Bye-bye"
"Bye" Tersengih-sengih aku keluar dari bank.
Cis..for nothing aku pergi town.
What should I do now?..Nak balik terus...no way.
I've wasted my $$ for the bus ride, there's no way for me to go back that early.
I just wondered around the town. Ok..ok..the only shop that I can stay and be when I'm alone in town is 'the bookshop'.
Yes...there are four bookshop in the town which situated nearby between each other.
But I only managed to enter three out of four.
End up of buying two story book by Marian Keyes and five of Winnie the Pooh story book.
Hahaha..Winnie the Pooh..my favourite cartoon character. But, hey don't get yourself wrong, I bought it specially for my niece.
Well, she's only three years old, however I'm pretty sure she will love those books.
Nak balik...alamak, where's my return ticket???
No..not again! I lost them. What a day?
I need to get in to the bus, there's no way for me to walk back home.
Well, it isn't that far, but arrgghh....malas nak jalan kaki.
Ok driver...today u earn extra from me.
Gosshh....
What I learned from here.....
1. Make sure that every bill to be paid ASAP.
2. Keep the bus ticket in a safe place, at least close to your body. (dlm pocket laaa...)
3. Never wondered around in the town if there's nothing to buy, as it will end up wif buying unneccesary stuff. (tapi beli buku takpe lah kan? heheh)
I've reached home safely...
There goes my morning for today...
Posted at 08:17 am by candle
Jun 20, 2004
I felt so gloomy today. Probably because of the weather.
I don't know, maybe.
I feel so empty. It's hard to explain.
I get to read my friend's email again.
This is the second time I tried to understand her condition at the moment.
She sounds so depressed for the past few weeks.
Her problem make me realized, anywhere and everywhere..
No matter who we are, what we do, how good we are....problems are always around us.
This friend of mine, I can say...she's having a really perfect life..
Well not to perfect but she got what she wants.
Although that her parent was separated years ago,
she and her sister never been neglected and ingnored by the parent.
Money - never be a problem to her. Seriously, memang no problem.
She's not a kerabat DiRaja or someone 'well known and famous'.
Her mum used to be over protected towards her.
Anywhere she wants to go, she needs to give a 'report' to her mum.
Even, on her birthday, she never get to have a lunch date with her girlfriends.
When she reach office, first thing that she needs to do is to call her mum.
I have to say. she's very obedient and well organized person.
She follow her mum's instructions all the way through.
To keep it simple and precise, she's 'seorang anak yang baik'
Now, she's married. What do you think? Will her mum still being 'over-protected' to her?
Or in other words, 'control' her life.
Well, I never thought about it, at least not until she wrote an email to me.
She kind of 'meluahkan perasaan' about her life as a wife, daughter and daughter in-laws.
Again it's her mum....it seems that she still need to do the same thing as always...
......report to her mum on anywhere she wants to go, where ever she'll and going to be, call her mum when she reach her office, and etc etc etc...
My friend's husband is being so supportive and understanding. But questions arises here from my friend to myself...
'Sampai bila?' 'What will happen if her husband get fed up as he has the right for her life?'
I just don't know. I feel so sorry for her. She told me that she cried a lot lately.
Deep down my heart, I pray for her. I wish and hope, one fine day she'll get over all her problems and lead a happy life ahead.
This reminds me, 'hidup tak selalunya indah'
Problems - come and go.
All we need and always need is strength.
Life is always full of hurdles.
I pray in silence, May Allah bring more lights to my friend's life...and myself.
Posted at 01:45 pm by candle
I don't know what should I say, but it happened.
Never had I imagine, but it happened.
I did email to him several times, and for that several times he replied.
I do like him, but I don't know what should I say.
I don't wanna be the first to start. But does it really matters?
What if he's the one? What if he's the one?
Tell me, what should I do? But come to think it again, do I really know him?
He seems to be a gentlemen, cool and smart looking.
Is that all I know?
Or should I just forget about him? Or should I try and give myself another chance?
The last email I wrote was a bit long but really tell him something.
I wish he can understand and feel my situation like the way I wanted him too.
But will he get the message? Or is he gonna look it in a different angle?
Oh dear...he could be the perfect one for me?
Errmm, do I over judge him, I mean, it might be too early to say...as I actually hardly really know him.
I met him during one 'course' that I need to attend last year.
I was so miserable during the 'course' as I wasn't sure of my decision at that time.
He was one of my groupmate. Infact, I like his name.
Ahh....what should I do? Of course. to everyone who has the feeling like I feel always wish....
.....to get a positive respond from the other end.......
Thus, I wish it too...
When will I know I have meet the right one?
When will that time come?.........
Posted at 01:40 am by candle
Jun 6, 2004
Begitu banyak cerita,
Ada suka ada duka,
CERITA yang ingin ku tulis,
Hanyalah CERITA biasa.....
Lama jugak aku fikir....apa patut aku jawab.
Suddenly this morning,aku apt idea...
I msg to her....
"No matter what you do or gonna do, I'll support you.
Once we fall,doesn't mean forever.
Fight the fall to stand for the future.
Miss you..."
Message Sent
I wish:
dia tau apa yang aku maksudkan...
dia tau apa yang patut dia buat selepas ini...
dia tau untuk jalani hidup dia selepas ini...
And most of all...aku harap life dia will be better in the future.
Dan aku pernah cakap kat dia...
tak guna ada 'paper' banyak2 tapi perangai tak jaga dengan elok..
Yang penting,how you present yourself...sbb bila org kenal kita,
kita yang orang tengok dulu....I mean...perangai kita.
Bukan berapa banyak award kita ada, berapa 'paper' kita ada...
At least this is what I think...
what do you think?
There goes my morning...
Posted at 09:23 am by candle
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